At least I was being rela

I’m afraid of being in a relationship because when I like someone I feel like I become a crazy person for them and I stress my self out and I go through many ups and downs with thinking maybe I have a chance with her maybe I should say something but if I do it will mess up our friendship and I don’t have many friends and I don’t want to do that. The last year I guess I haven’t really had those feelings for someone and even though I don’t go out as much because when I like someone I usually try to hang out with her only us two and if we had some of the same friends I would feel like I had to go because I like her but now I don’t feel no obligation to go anywhere with anyone I do what I want to do and the best part is I am not stressed out worrying about dumb things dealing with some girl I like but most likely doesn’t feel the same way but the lime that I have always heard is I only see us as friends. I really want to be in a relationship but I think I am better off being alone

I don’t know why but things seem so clear to me right now and its all starting to make sense